Before she kissed a girl and liked it. Before she was hot n cold. Before she bragged about California girls. Katy Perry was Katy Hudson. Katy Hudson was a singer/songwriter and daughter of pastors.
She released a humble album as a teenager. A Christian album at that, with some really deep insights woven into her lyrics. We can say what we want about whether not it any of it rooted down or transformed her heart, but one thing I am certain about after hearing this album is Katy Hudson spent time with the Lord.
She sang about trusting the Lord, growing pains, and the ‘monster’ inside of her. She sang about not being enough and needing Him to sustain her or that faith won’t fail her.
I’m not here to speculate what happened. I don’t even want to make the assumption that anything did happen. I have not met Katy Perry, I have no idea what she is like in real life. She has been a public figure for over a decade and has people she pays to portray an image of her that will sell more albums. I don’t want to make the lazy assumption that her public image is who she really is.
Instead, I want to talk about one of the songs from her Christian album, Search Me.
I was reminded of this song because of a recent sermon at my church. The message was on Psalm 139. In verse 23, David writes “Search me, O God, and know my heart!”
This is bold ask. Asking God, who is all-knowing and all-powerful, to search our heart. That is surrendering to God and allowing Him to penetrate your heart. He will find things that you won’t like, He will find things that you don’t want him to find, and He will find things you didn’t even know that was there.
This can be a painful process. But asking Him to “Search Me” can be a great comfort as well. Because we know that He will see us for who we are and who we can become. He will see past the masks and facades we put up and see the real us, and love us for who we really are.
So even if it’s scary, ask God to “Search Me.” In His search, He will be able to reveal the best you and mould you like a potter moulds the clay. Life transformation is never easy, but is always worth it.
“Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!”